Someone to talk to? Someone to fuck too

Well, first thing first, I didn't mean that literally

Back to the freaky diary again, and currently not in the mood to cheerfully scream the shit out of my lungs
In the last post, I said that I would bare it all, the hiatus and stuff, but not now

Okay, now the usual everyday problems seem to rush to me in an awkwardly pace
I mean, I'm in a breakdown state if you haven't understood yet

In my broken, psychotic mind, I'm searching for solutions to break my self free from the shits
But what do you expect from this kind of mind? Yep, that's right, MINDFUCK
My mind fucked myself up , now I'm faaaaaarr doooown in the depths of Hades' abyssal hell

Figured that I need someone to talk to, hoping that it would lighten the torture I'm experiencing now
And the one I'm going to talk to, still need to release the burden I blessed him with and it means that his subconscious would unconsciously blabber things about my hell and i wouldn't want that

and in conclusion, Someone to talk to is someone to fuck too

-This is my way of relieving burden, don't know what it actually means, just came straight through my wicked brain, hence, the excessive use of primal language :o

Revival of a Once-Fucked-Up Boy

Hi fellow readers and cheers!

Here I am back again after being out of the radar for more than half a year, causing wreckage in my everyday life
Well, for the past few months, got lots of life lesson
maybe you're asking what triggered me to blog again? with a whole new expression, all cheerful and full-spirited

yeah okay, I was on my daily routine of stalking awesomeness that I decided to check out blogs of my friends'
turned out that their's are so good, not only how it looks, but inside, its pretty much decent stuffs
I have tons of things to tell, just not now, i'll get in the rollercoaster in a couple days, wait for the bell!

cheers! cheers! cheers!
and get out of my fucking face :3

Short Comments - Relieved

Feeling a little more relieved after reading some quotes here and there
Maybe she is not the best for me.
Okay then, I don;t want to think about you and think about me.

Simply strive forward to the never-ending tomorrow

Wrecked Just at the Right Time

Okay, so the story goes like this
I am bout to leave my bad habit and advance to a better life
I was doing things and tasks I have to do when suddenly I stumbled upon bad things again, badder than the things of yesterday
It sends shiver down my spine, my trembling self cannot stand the sight
And now, feeling nauseatic and traumatic, I am trying to forget that thing I suddenly remembered out of the blue

Come on, live the life to the fullest, cherish your life!

Another Work in The Eleventh Hour

Back again in the middle of the night.
Trying to express my feelings here and train my writing skills.
I just gotta learn a lot of things to make the future clearer for me.

Leaning my chest towards the thin napkin as my fingers type.
Listening to NoGoD's "Kakusei" enlightens my feeling and deprivation

Maybe before I start working for today, I wanna share what that song means for me
Literally, "Kakusei" means awake. The song is 'bout someone that can't afford to express his/her feeling to the world
The song encourages the shy guys to speak up following their heart's content.
Hence, the chorus line of the song, "Kimi no koe wo kakusei se yo" that means "Awaken your voice!"

Everytime I am breaking down (not breaking dawn the asswipe movie) this song raises me up again and again
I just can't get enough of the whole songs in NoGoD's first major album "Kakera".

That's enough, the test comes tomorrow. Gotta prepare myself for battle.
Jya, mata aou da ;)

Few Minutes Away, Billions of Feelings

First, I just want to say sorry that my first posts don't have anything to do with the GazettE and other VKei bands, Kinda get carried on.

So, when I still got the spirit to write, well here I am.

I walked around Google to find my fellow schoolmates' blogs and what did I find?
Yeah, my schoolmate's blog. But, I just stumbled upon a wrong schoolmate's blog.
It was just a coincidence and I got a little carried on and explored here and there.
Smiling face and slowly depressed feeling comes to surface.

Kind of a weird post, indeed.
Honestly, I am not really good in writing.
I just don't have a sense of humor recently, don't know what caused what or maybe who caused what.
And I am slacking off from work again

First Post Far Too Early in the Morning

Okay, first post.
It is 1 A.M. in the morning and I just can't sleep yet.
Slacking off from work, I Don't know what I am looking for in this cold night.
And I just got a flash of an idea to make this blog, and I am here writing my first post in this blog.
I hope it can stay alive longer than my last.

Back to work, got classes tomorrow
Feeling not too well, caught a flu and thank God I didn't get a cold and not planning to..
Probably not going to sleep this night.

Hoping that sickness won't devour me for what I shouldn't have done
Wish me luck today, storm is coming.